Coming Out Of The Closet
I always knew I was different. I never quite fit in with the majority of people I met. When my friends were off playing, I was drawing, writing, and creating stories.
Let me be clear when I say my friends, I didn't actually have many, and the ones I did have, I questioned our friendship daily. I was extremely insecure and did not believe someone could actually like me.
I was extremely sensitive, cried all the time, and spent more time with adults than my own peer group. I loved when they would tell me I was an old soul, somehow I felt those words meant something, I could connect to them.
My love for all things cheesy, fairy tales, songs, movies, stories, and more, began early. Anything with a Prince and Princess was my favourite. Before even having children, I owned over 50 Disney movies, had the matching audio cassettes and could belt out all the words to The Little Mermaid, Beauty and The Beast and Aladdin to name a few (and yes there is video proof of this!).
I recently asked in meditation how old I was when I stopped hearing my Angels, and was told age eleven. After a few days of thinking about this, I knew exactly what happened. It was my grade five year going into grade six, it was the year I was forced out of being a child, and had to take on more responsibility than I was ready for.
This led to me becoming extremely shy and quiet (and yes, those who know me are wondering how that is possible, as I am quite the opposite now!). By the time I was eighteen, and had returned from a year away in Brazil on a rotary exchange, I had dropped out of high school and started doing drugs. At nineteen I was pregnant, and by twenty I was a Mom.
The next ten years were spent being something I was not, hiding how I felt, closing myself off to Spirit, fighting through each day. I wasn't happy, but I wasn't unhappy either. When I was at work training clients, I was energized and full of light, but when I was at home, I felt further and further away from who I was meant to be.
When I turned thirty I bought my first Angel Card deck and that's when the shift started slowly awakening me to who I was sent here to be. I remember looking at them, Doreen Virtue's Goddess Guidance Oracle cards, and feeling a sense of strength, like the women on the cards were part of who I was, that asking for their help and support made me one of them.
That deck anchored me and made me believe again.
When I met my now husband and brought him to my bedroom for the first time, I remember how scared I was because I had an alter by my bed with candles, Oracle cards, incense and crystals. I thought that he would see it and think I was out of my mind.
There was so much fear in me about being Spiritual.
My husband did not go running from my room in fear that night, and why would he when he finally got me into my bedroom, and the chance for some frisky time was in front of him! Nor did he actually care that I used the cards for guidance, not then, not today.
The fear was mine; it was me projecting it on others.
I still hadn't opened up to my full potential at this point. That happened in the summer of 2015, when I had to face myself, raw, hurt, and in a dark place. I had to go deep into my subconscious to find the light to get me through my days.
It began in meditation, in the moments I let everything else fade away, and I could truly hear, that's when my Angels came.
I started to receive messages and guidance while I was meditating, and since it was all so new to me, I started to seek out people and programs that would help make sense of it all.
I started connecting with people who could hear their angels, could read energy and had incredible intuition. I found it so much easier to be myself with them. I wasn't scared they would think I was a whack-a-doo.
I trusted that I was where I needed to be. That allowed me to hear that I am on this earth to help people rediscover their inner child, to reconnect to their passion in life, and to let go of things that no longer serve them.
Knowing that, I got my Life Coaching certification and Doreen Virtue's Angel Card Reader certification.
Now came the hard part, the part I was dreading. I had to let everyone in my life know that I wanted to make a career of using my intuition, talking to Angels, and using my Spirituality. I was petrified.
I remember with extreme clarity the first time I told someone, outside of my spiritual groups, that I talked to Angels. It came out like a whisper and I shielded myself for the comment back that never came.
My gifts were accepted and permitted by me and others.
Coming out of the Spiritual closet was fearful only because I made it so. When you become who you are meant to be, the Universe delivers to you people who will build you higher, not break you down.
Your vibration goes up and is read by others vibrating at that same frequency, and you instantly form bonds of love and trust. It's magical.
When I asked all my friends, family and fellow B-Schoolers what I should be called, giving them three choices, it was a resounding and overwhelming answer. The Enchanted Fairy. No questions asked, no negative comments, just love.
It was as if the Universe took a deep breath and sighed, finally.
I found my purpose, I came out of the closet, and it felt so good.
My purpose here is to help you find yourself again. The you that was lost when someone told you who to be and you believed them.
If you are afraid to let a part of yourself out, don't be. The fear of being judged or ridiculed is clogging your power. Trust that you will be taken care of, because you will.
If there is one thing I have learned in the last year, it is to be me. All in. Those who are meant to be in my life will find me, and the people who can't handle all my awesomeness will move on.
I know what I am here to do.
Please send me any questions or comments you might have. I would love to connect!
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Sending you so much love and light,
The Enchanted Fairy!